song of my moment: amazing for a minute -- katy mcallister
seriously, you don't understand how much that song is my life.
like, i can't even. it is my life. and my love for it is immense.
it's okay to want something you can't have. it's okay to keep friendships you don't want or want something more. it's okay to cry when you're hurt. and it's okay to stay mad at someone who hurt you. believe it or not, it's always going to be okay.
i don't know if it's rational to still be this attached to you after all this time. i don't know if it's normal to be reminded of you, of us, of things we did together at every turn during the day. i don't know if i'm completely insane for still having the flowers you gave me months ago, when things were still so happy. i don't know if this is crazy considering we weren't together that long. i don't know if i should have long since moved on by now.. i don't know if it makes any bit of sense to still want you, to want you wanting me, to just.. want to be wanted by you again. i don't know if its ridiculous to think that maybe, just maybe we could be something again. there's so much i don't know.. but all i do know is that i'm still very, very stuck on you...
"she remained as she had always been, amused and curious, but strangely distant, as if her own life were a book she was reading, one she might put down at any moment in order to gaze out the window at the sky."
a photo says, you were happy, and i wanted to catch that. a photo says, you were so important to me that i put down everything else to come watch.
-My Sister's Keeper -- Jodi Picoult-
you have no right to say a single word about me, my choices, or my past. cause you weren't there. you didn't get your heart broken. you didn't watch him bounce right back.
i think she was afraid to love sometimes. i think it scared her. she was the type to like things that were concrete, like the ocean. something you could point to and know what it is. i think that’s why she always struggled with god. and i think that’s why she also struggled with love. she couldn’t touch it. she couldn’t hold on to it and make sure it never changed. but sometimes it’s those things you can’t touch that you need to hold on to the most.
we're perfect in a fucked up kind of way. you talk too much but i like what you say. you're nothing new and nobody different.
so i will never know the right way to say thanks for all the nights and days you spent hanging out because that's what this is about. how i, i am not into the idea of living without you.
"i can't be with someone else. and you know that. you can feel that, right? every time i look at you my heart breaks again. being with someone else would not only be unfair to them, but unfair to me. my heart is yours for the keeping, and you have kept it. if my heart isn't going to be in anything but you, if i'm not going to shiver every time he brushes the hair from my eyes, or when he fucking looks at me, then i don't want to even try. i want you. and only you, but you know that already."
it's never too late to go back and fix things that didn't work out as planned. we all make mistakes, lie, and hurt people we love. it's possible to fix it, but of course it won't be easy. but if you care about someone enough, you'll go around the world and back just to make things work.
<3 <3 <3
i hope you guys enjoyed.uhm, i think that's all. yeahhh.. mmkay...
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