song of my moment: in real life - demi lovato
i don't know why i've really started liking this song recently.
it used to be one of my least favorites on the album, but recently.. i don't know. it's grown on me? haha
new post finally.
sorry it's been so long.
life's been.. interesting... to say the least..
well, i'm not sure what this is gonna be, but with my eyes closed all i see is the skyline through the window, the moon above you, and the streets below. hold my breath as you're moving in, taste your lips, and feel your skin. when the time comes, baby don't run, just kiss me slowly..
-Kiss Me Slowly -- Parachute-
^^that song is absolute love. well,i mean, it's parachute, so.. but you know what i mean^^
you could be happy, and i won't know. but you weren't happy the day i watched you go.
i can't just switch love on. nobody can. it happens or it doesn't.
when i turned to look at you, i was afraid to move again; the moment was just too beautiful to be lost.
the movies i watch and the music i listen to and the books i read - those are important to me. it's very important to me, and i don't know what i would do without those things.
there's a story behind everything - how a picture got on your wall, how a scar got on your knee. sometimes the stories are simple, and sometimes they're just hard and heartbreaking
just because the road ahead is long is no reason to slow down. just because there's much work to be done is no reason to get discouraged. it's a reason to get started, to grow, to find new ways, to reach within yourself and discover strength, commitment, determination and discipline.
so i would choose to be with you, that's if the choice were mine to make. but you can make decisions too, and you can have this heart to break.
-And So It Goes -- Billy Joel-
laughter and tears are both responses to frustration and exhaustion. i myself prefer to laugh, since there is less cleaning up to do afterward.
"things have been perfectly fine without you here, which i think is important to let you know. if you miss me, or if i have missed you, we haven’t let on, not yet, although maybe it’s coming, late night slurs of voice messages, sad little echoes of who i used to know. i haven’t been through this before, you know that, but things have prepared me for it, i believe. things like having to gaze at the dead orange blur of a goldfish in a toilet, having to change pants because accidents happen when you are a kindergartner and you barely know better but it is still hard not to be embarrassed. i don’t think highly of myself, because what kind of girl my age does, but you always made me feel a little better about how i have to think too long before i say anything, which makes me come off as slow and sluggish and stupid, and how my hair never lies down the places i would like it to. you always made me feel better, except when you were making me feel worse, which happened more often towards the end. the end, rather anticlimactic, to tell you the truth, not what i expected after all those spectacular fights. but it did come suddenly, i’ll give you that. you sure had me going there for a while."
the beauty of friendship is not just listening when words are spoken but feeling and sharing even when there's nothing but silence.
and i don't just mean that they change you. a lot of people can change you - the first kid who called you a name, the first teacher who said you were smart, and the first person who crowned you best friend. it's the change you remember, the firsts and what they meant, not really the people... i'm talking about the ones who, for whatever reason, are as much a part of you as your own soul. their place in your heart is tender; a bruise of longing, a pulse of unfinished business.
always keep your words soft and sweet. just in case you'll have to eat them, you can swallow them well.
the nights can't hide the days that the tears rolled down her face. and the light hits those eyes as she's dying to say, "just take me away from all that i am.."
-All That I Am -- Parachute-
"we start to learn that maybe being alone isn't really all that horrendous. that when you lie in bed all day, you feel safe almost. and that sometimes, a good book is better than great friends."
in the years afterward, i fled whenever somebody began to understand me. that has subsided. but one thing remained: i don't want anybody to understand me completely. i want to go through life unknown. the blindness of others is my safety and my freedom.
love and electricity are one in the same. my dear if you do not feel the jolt in your soul every time a kiss is shared, a whisper is spoken, and touch is felt, then you’re not really in love at all.
the sad thing is, you can still love someone, and be wrong for them.
all of us started out normal. all of us started out with the potential to do almost anything we wanted, but somewhere along the path of our lives, we got lost.
i don't care what everyone thinks, let them think they are better than me. because i'm going to be the one to get out of this run-down town. i'm going to be the one to look back and say "look at me now".
<3 <3 <3
so, that was this.
uhm. i don't know how much there is to say.
the boyfriend and i broke up. but that was a long time coming.
and i'm not bent up about it, so, meh. it was my doing anyway.
okay, i think that's all i have to say for now?