song of my moment: these are the nights -- making april
so, new post. mmkay.
you are most likely to get hurt when you love and trust someone with all your heart, but unless you're willing to take the risk, you'll never trust anyone and you'll never know what love feels like.
you don't want to let people in. it's hard for you. and once you let people in, you don't want to let them go. and when they screw up, you think, why would they do that to me? i gave you all my feelings, i did everything for you, and you still screwed me over. it's like you wish they were a better person.
even the very best friend isn't perfect. every friendship has its share of ups and downs, disappointments and discouragements, but the true test of friendship is whether it endures the hard times as well as the happy times. when you are truly best friends, when you have a friendship worth preserving, you learn how to voice your feelings with each other. you discuss how and when you've been hurt. you even cry together. then you forgive, seal your friendship with a hug, and continue on good terms with each other. that's how best friendships are maintained over the years. each little offense is dealt with and forgiven. the focus remains on the strengths of the relationship; love, understanding, acceptance, and loyalty. when you take time to work through differences and misunderstandings, the friendship grows stronger and sweeter.
nothing is certain anymore. i don't know what in the world is the right thing to do, and so i'm stuck here in a place i don't want to be. i don't want to sit back and watch you be fine without me. i don't want to cry and carry on like i have been doing for the past week. i just want not to want you anymore. i want to, hell i need to, just move on.
and when she pulled back and whispered, “i missed you so much,” it felt as if i’d been put back together after spending a year cut in half.
-Dear John -- Nicholas Sparks-
i think the most confusing person is ourselves. we all want what we can't have, and don't appreciate what we do have. we fall for someone we know will hurt us, but ignore the people who care about us so much. we love when we should hate, and vice versa. when we get what we've been wanting, it never meets our standards. we can’t make up our minds.
i know how you feel: disappointed, stupid, and foolish. just when you think he could be everything you ever wanted, he turns out to be someone you never thought he'd be. it hurts to know you let your walls down for nothing.
the truth of the matter is that what's done is done. no excuses are necessary. you can't go back and change anything, so there's no point in being stuck in the past. excuses never work, you're only lying to yourself and lying to yourself never helps anything. eventually all the lies and the excuses and the alibis fall away and you're left here, stripped with the truth before your very eyes, whether you're ready to accept it or not.
i know this is hard to believe, but she cared. she cared a whole fucking lot about you. she's not perfect, she knows that, but she loved you, remember that. she still does. she probably still will, after she leaves and she goes her way, she's still gonna fucking care.
life always offers you a second chance. it's called tomorrow.
for the millionth time, i missed him so much i could feel the pain in my chest.
it's taken me till now to accept that i made a mistake. and to understand why you did what you did. and to accept that what i feel for you isn't like the weather. it's permanent. it hasn't changed. and i don't think it will.
i don't give up easily; i fight for what i want. it takes a lot for me to actually give up on something or someone. i can't just throw away all the hard work and time i put into it. i can't just give up because times are hard, especially if that person means so much to me. i keep fighting for what i want until i can't fight anymore, until giving up is the only option left.
and he suddenly knew that if she killed herself, he would die. maybe not immediately, maybe not with the same blinding rush of pain, but it would happen. you couldn't live for very long without a heart.
-The Pact -- Jodi Picoult-
if you're not happy with the person you're with, don't stay with them. you're not magically going to wake up one morning and decide you're going to be happy again. someone makes you that way. find the someone that makes you happy.
"i'm walking away and i know she wishes i would turn back more than anything. she's going to love me her entire life and, maybe i will too. but, i'm getting on this train for the last time. she knows the distance is hard; she knows the miles are too much. i wish they weren't. but this goodbye is the last. it isn't "i'll see you soon" anymore. this is goodbye for good. will i miss her? i'll miss her always, every second i spend forgetting her and everything she meant to me. a year and a half of my life spent breathing her, and now it's hard to breathe at all. i know i'm destroying her. i doubt she's even breathing at a safe rate right now. but, my life can no longer be her. i can't pretend and i can't fight the miles any longer. she is unlike anyone, i won't deny you that. but she deserves a hero and i am not hers anymore. she'll think about me constantly and i'll ignore her. she isn't my heart anymore; she can't be. my back is probably burning itself into her memory but it's too late. though i've loved her with all i have, this is goodbye. i am leaving her empty and i wish her luck. i would die before wanting to leave her like this, but i am. odd, love is."
^^so, i really wish i knew what this was from. because i've always had such an intense love for it. always.^^
ariadne: why do you do this to yourself?
cobb: it's the only way i can dream.
ariadne: why is it important to dream?
cobb: in my dreams, we're still together.
because lately, i just keep hearing people blame love. but love doesn't walk away, people do.
the words came on their own, no thought required. it was just process, cold and indifferent, like plugging numbers into an equation, and i could have been someone else, listening and watching this, for all i felt.
"her voice drowned in a wave of tears so abrupt and soulful they drew tears out of my own eyes without my even knowing. had you been a passerby and heard someone crying like that you would have sworn she'd just lost everything. i wondered if she felt as if she had."
<3 <3 <3
so, i hope you enjoyed.
comments have been down, which is kind of sad, but that's life i guess.
uhm.. i don't exactly know what to say here.. so i guess that's it.