song of my moment: red -- taylor swift
oh my god that song. i seriously am SO obsessed with it.
okay, so i'm SO SO SO SO SO SORRY that i've been gone so long!
september became ABSOLUTELY crazy and i just. i'm reeeeally sorry <3
“it’s like everyone tells a story about themselves inside their own head. always. all the time. that story makes you what you are. we build ourselves out of that story.”
-The Name of the Winds --Patrick Rothfus-
i wish \i had the guts to just walk away and forget about what we had, but i can't, because i know you won't come after me, and i guess that's what hurts the most.
you call yourself her best friend and yet all you do is tear her down and refuse to let her be happy? how can you live with yourself, making her so miserable? is it so bad that for once when she could be happy, you just have to do everything you can to take it away from her? are you jealous? are you that insecure? are you that selfish, that you're the only one who's ever allowed to be happy? every time something good comes into her life, you can never let her have it. you manipulate and steal away from her until all that's left is a broken shell of a girl with no fight left in her. you leave her for someone else to pick up the pieces and try to glue her back together, and you wait for the time she feels strong enough to try again, because, after all, you're her "best friend."
^^wow. okay, i wrote this quote a while ago. i was pretty livid that night. i almost forgot all about this...^^
i love those kind of nights that turn out unexpectedly good, great, and sometimes just all out amazing just because you didn’t really expect anything to happen at all. if only we could live just like that — with no expectations in mind. it’s possible we’d be much happier, with more memorable moments that would last us a lifetime.
i love you. but you don't have to say it back. you don't have to be at the same place emotionally that i am but i know that i love you and i wanted you to know it.
-It's Just a Date -- Greg Behrendt & Amiira Ruotola-Behrendt-
"it hurts to say that," he said, shrugging. "but better to be hurt by the truth than comforted with a lie."
-The Kite Runner -- Khaled Hosseini-
we never see things changing. we only see them ending. and some vicious whispering voice kept saying you have no choice.
don’t go around looking for love, have love find you. that’s why it’s called ‘falling in love’ because you aren’t forcing yourself.
now that i'm older, i know much more than i did back then. but the more i learn, the more i can't understand. and i've become content with this life, where i drink too much and don't believe in much of anything. and i lie to myself and say it's for the best.
there is no perfect relationship. bullshit will come up when you least expect it. jealousy will come out of nowhere. at times you will feel replaced and at times you will feel like giving up. just don’t go that far. don’t give up. you’ll argue, and you won’t talk for days, but nobody says it has to be over.
i know you’re sorry. but being sorry isn’t enough.
you call it lazy, i call it selective participation.
where are you now? as i'm swimming through the stereo i'm writing you a symphony of sound. where are you now? as i rearrange the songs again, this mix could burn a hole in anyone but it was you i was thinking of.
-The Mixed Tape -- Jack's Mannequin-
and my heart's not breaking, 'cause i'm not feeling anything at all.
-The Way I Loved You -- Taylor Swift-
beauty comes from a life well lived. if you've lived well, your smile lines are in the right place and your frown lines aren't too bad, what more do you need?
^^ so.. riley and i at the football game last friday. aren't we adorbz? ;) gosh, i can't believe people actually take pictures like that and are legit.. hahaha ^^
i was confused and alone, and i didn't know what i was doing. i just knew i couldn't wait for you anymore. but that doesn't mean i don't miss you.
every person has two sides to them. one they let the world see, the other they keep to themselves but every so often, let someone special glance at.
that day, that moment, opened a curiosity of bodies, shaped us and irrevocably as our first kiss; our first realizations. you go into that moment never really knowing if the closeness will wear well, if it is something that should happen. i know she wasn't sure of me, and i wasn't sure of me, either.
such pain as this shouldn't have to be experienced. still reeling from the loss, still a little bit delirious.
-Near To You -- A Fine Frenzy-
but none of that was true. leaving was easy. it was everything else that was so damn hard.
<3 <3 <3
so, again i'm suuuuper super sorrry it's been so long!
i'll try not to let it happen again!!!
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