song of my moment: sixteen -- orla gartland
i'm kind of super in love with that song. anyways.
new post. little bit of life update at the bottom.
it's the way your heart beats faster when he comes around, it's the way you can't breathe when you think about him, it's the way when you try to talk to him nothing comes out, it's the way that his name alone captivates your whole mind, it's the way you could sit and think about him for hours and still believe he's the only one for you.
even with the best intentions, growing apart might just be an inevitable part of growing up. it's no one's fault, so there's nothing to feel guilty about. it's just the way things are.
getting what you want is just as difficult as not getting what you want. because then you have to figure out what to do with it instead of figuring out what to do without it.
losing him was blue like i'd never known. missing him was dark grey, all alone. forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you've never met. but loving him was red...
-Red -- Taylor Swift-
the best advice i will ever give...if someone is playing mind games with you play them right back. delete their number then the next time they text you, i don't care if you recognize the number or not, you say, "who is this?" nothing will hurt them more than feeling insignificant, i promise.
his body was dead tired, but his heart was wide awake. pounding and wide awake.
secretly, i wish he was miserable. even more secretly, i wish he was happy.
i never said i wanted to be perfect, i just want to be good enough for you.
she swears that there's no difference between the lies and compliments; it's all the same if everybody leaves her. and every magazine tells her she's not good enough. the pictures that she sees makes her cry. and she would change everything, everything; just ask her, caught in the in-between of beautiful disaster. she just needs someone to take her home.
-Beautiful Disaster -- Jon McLaughlin-
^^one of my favorite songs in the history of ever.^^
there is no person in the world who is made to handle every punch that's thrown at them. we aren't made that way. in fact, we're made to get mad, upset, sad, be hurt, stumble and fall. we aren't suppose to be able to handle everything. but that's what makes us stronger in the end, by learning from the things that hurt us the most.
we put our truths together in pieces, but you use nails, and i use glue. you mend with staples. i mend with screws. you stitch what i would bandage. your truth may not look like mine, but that is not what matters. what matters is this: you can look at a scar and see hurt or you can look at a scar and see healing. try to understand.
-A Gracious Plenty -- Sheri Reynolds-
it's either the bravest thing i have ever done or the most idiotic. and i suddenly realize how hard it is to tell the difference.
^^i'm kind of equating this quote to homecoming at this point..^^
^^hah, this comment was from last week when i meant to post this before i went to homecoming.. hah well^^
i don't know if it's that i miss you still after all this time or if i miss us and what we had. i don't know if i like you or if i just don't want other other girls to like you like i did. i don't know if i want to go there again or if i just don't want someone else to be where i've been. i don't know if want to have you again or if i just don't want anyone else to have you. i don't know if these feelings are coming back or if i'm still caught up in what once was that they never went away. i don't know what this is.. all i know is that i don't like it..
the worst feeling is when someone makes you feel special, then suddenly leaves you hanging and you have to act like you don’t care at all.
you’ll probably never meet her but the idea of her will haunt you whenever you think of him. because even though he didn’t leave you for her, it will always feel like he did. and now you can’t stop wondering who she is- if she’s sweet, if you’re prettier than her, if she worth everything you’re not. and when exactly did this transition happen, from you to her, and how did the future change from yours to theirs? you get the feeling you’ll never get the answers you’re looking for, but maybe in the end he’s not worth them.
^^this quote will never not be relevant.^^
so, i had planned to post this update like, last week. seriously, i'm sooo slacking and i'm sorry :|
we had homecoming this past weekend, and that was...interesting..
i went with bailey, which probably should have been the warning sign that it'd certainly be interesting..
i just.. i don't know what to say about it anymore..
uhm, here, i'll give you a few pictures, that'll make it okay, right? haha.
^^bailey and i^^
^^and the best friend and i <3^^
^^homecoming group! purples vs yellows!^^
^^yellow girls! also, CPAC girls <3^^
^^girls did charlie's angels. we're so cool ;) hahaha^^
so, i hope this taste of homecoming pictures satisfies you.
it was a pretty decent senior homecoming, i do have to say.
so, that's it, my loves.
until next time (which will hopefully not be so long again!)